i forgot how angry i used to get at him, and how angry i can still get at him, and at the same time, how well we get along...

sometimes i just want to scream and scream at him until i collapse... and then, there are days like today, that remind me of exactly why i love him so much, and why we get along so well, and why we fight so much at the same time... and i think this is because we are soo alike sometimes it is scary.

today we finished up early, and so we had plenty of time to just chill out.... and we did... we just sat in complete silence for about 10 minutes, because on occasion we do that, we just sit, and by being in the same room at the same time that is just enough, words aren't needed... and then we talked, we can talk about anything together, most of the time it is meaningless, and silly, but today we really talked... we haven't done that in a long time.

he offered me a job for this summer, which i might have to take, i am so desperate for money it is ridiculous... not to mention that would totally be awesome, since we ususally work together anyways, and otherwise this summer we probably wouldn't because of all the changes going on...

but, it could put me in a lot of trouble with Jaime, and i don't know if i want to risk it... its not like anything at all would change, i would just be working only for him, and i would be getting paid... Which how could that get any better? i would still be at the same place, with the same people, all of which i love, but now i would be getting paid to do what i love! that would be absolutely wonderful...

gosh i wish money was not something that played in here. it is something that can completly kill human emotions... i mean look at greed and what it does to people... i could do without money all together in fact... everything would be soo much better, and happier... i don't know what to do... hopefully it will all work out...

much love,

katie