she is far away from home, sitting in a place she has yet to call her own. with four white cinder block walls, and 2 other girls. she is most likely at her computer this very moment. possibly even reading these words. stalling... "researching"

she gets nervous a lot of the time, and stresses about this and that all the time. she goes to the gym everyday to work out, and that helps, but she is still stressed. when she calls, i hear her tension, and pain. her jaw is clenched tight, she always clenches her jaw when she is stressed.

she is stressed a lot lately.

why is it so hard? what is there for you to prove? my dear, you already made it into college, you are out there on your own... you manage your time very well, and always do all of your work. you always get everything done. you mom is soo incredibly proud of you, as is your father, and me..... goes without saying.

ashy is a big girl now. bigger than i am. braver than i am. and perfectly capable of doing it all on her own.

so wipe those tears off of your face darlin, sit down, take a deep breath, and tell yourself, i can do this. because i know you can. just believe.

and call me if you need. im here.

smiles and happy things.