confusion, school, decisions, money, all muddle my mind, clouding my thoughts and raining on my heart. the sun doesnt shine as brightly when you walk the roads all alone sometimes. and this is one decision i want to be final, and not regret one bit. the clock ticks at my back and my mind races forward, with a very small beacon in the distance, a light so tiny it gives me no clues as to what is the right decision... my future.

grams called last night and was convinced i was lying to her when i said i wasnt sure where i wanted to go to school. she tried to tell me i was lying, and finally asked my mother, who told her i was telling the truth. confidence booster there.

colby-sawyer
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endicott

those names swirl around in my head when i try to rest. what to do... what to do?