i have always had a hard time with goodbyes. sometimes when i feel an immanent goodbye i run from it. i was never good with confrontations that could be forevers.

forever is such a permanent address... i am not so sure i could accept that address with some people and places. however, i know it will happen.

loyalty. loyalty is important to me. i have always been loyal till the end. whether or not i am the one that ends it.

i am afraid of the pieces of myself that i will leave with people when they have left. to love someone so much that you know eventually you will have to let go despite the pain and emptiness is something i am not sure i am ready to grapple with.

sometimes happiness has it's own address. sometimes when we are not on the same corner it is hard to imagine living with what may be in the future. though i do find the thought of tomorrow incredibly exciting.

i had no saturday afternoon call this past weekend.

i worry all the time.

please, dont let this street be a dead end. im not ready for that dark corner.