i have discovered over this past week that when i am in my hour of most need, that i will always have someone there for me. and that makes me so incredibly happy, i cannot even begin to describe my feelings for these people.

it is the concern that they have for me, and what is going on in my head, and with my life that makes them so wonderful... to take a drive to nowhere, for no reason, while i talk and get things off of my mind... to take me out for icecream, and make me smile, and to tell me that when i smile i am beautiful, and it makes them smile... to talk to me into the late hours of the night, and tell me that i am worth what i believe in... to run up to me and hug me without reason, other than they wanted to, or they felt like it... those are the people in my world that make everything worth living... i do not know what i would do without these people... i truly dont... god knows i love them, and they are wonderful...

there is so much to love about them, but most of all, they share with me, something so wonderful, and beautiful, words cannot begin to describe it, and that is the joy of growing up together, and becoming who they are, and who i am... people help shape each other everyday, and i am glad that i am affecting their lives, and they are affecting mine... people dont always make the best choices, but to be able to get through those tough decisions together, and to know that you made an impact on someones life, that is wonderful.

i have made a resolve this weekend to try and be happy as much of the time as possible, because i have so many wonderful things to look forward to... and quite frankly, feeling sad or bad for yourself just sucks... school this year looks alright, a heavy work load, true, but i think i have some really wonderful teachers, and i will be able to learn a ton this year, as long as i make the most of it. i have work, which i absolutly adore, along with the people that i work with, i cannot imagine doing anything else with my time... i love my ponies, and all the people that i have the wonderful pleasure of sharing them with... in fact, if i am not working and i dont have anything planned i often find myself bored and lost, needing something to do, horses ALWAYS give you somethign to do... and not to mention my baby, major, he is sick, but i want the rest of his life to be incredibly wonderful, and so it is my goal to work for him, and make every moment incredibly wonderful... and then i have my dreams... i often find my dreams are what helps me get through the day... with something so wonderful and beautiful to think about and work for, it is easier to get my work done, and know i am that much closer to my goal. and then my wonderful family. my younger brother who, yes can be annoying, but is also so sensitive and cute i have to love him... my mother, who i often dont get along with, and yet i still love her to death, and she loves me, for the simple fact that she is my mother, and i am her daughter... and then there is my dad. he isnt around a lot, but when he is, he always manages to make me feel loved, in his own intelligent, and goofy ways.... i love them all... and then, last but not least, my friends... the people that never cease to amaze me, and often make me smile, when there is no reason... there is SOOO much to love, and soo much to look forward to, and i am glad that i have so many people in my life to remind me of that... thank you soo much.

much, much love,

katie