i am a girl that doesn't know how to handle things.. i got scared and ran... and it was horrible.

because that is what i do, i run, well, not always run, but avoid the problem or situation if i don't feel comfortable... and hell, i am the best avoider that i have ever met... i have a way of building walls around myself to protect me from the world, and avoid these things, and i only end up hurting people around me, and myself for that matter...

but i cannot run from this, and i will not...
so if and when you read this please understand, i didn't mean to hurt you, i don't want to hurt you, ever... your friendship means the world to me...


i am sorry...

really i am...