I would love to be able to come up with something clever and interesting to write about at the moment, or something that leaves people guessing as to the underlying meaning of what I am saying, because I love being mysterious, but I have neither the time or the energy for that now.

I spent the day reading a book and writing chapter summaries for chemistry, which I found was not only a complete waste of my day, but a mood killer as well. and I also took the time to look at my calendar. today is the 21st of December, that means I have exactly 3 days, not including today to finish all of my Christmas shopping... ahhh... and it also means that tomorrow, I would have officially owned major for two years, and simply thinking that makes me want to cry... although I must admit I have moved on and gotten over all of that, it still makes me sad every now and then, and it also makes me wonder how different everything would be now...

I thought about a lot of things this weekend, and how they might have turned out differently if different things had occurred... kind of like a what-if kind of thing... but in doing this I only concluded that the past is the past, and nothing can be done about it now, because we are living in terms of the future and the now, and the only thing we can do is learn from the past...

I wish I had more time. it is already 9:00 and I still want to have two essays written for history, so I don't have to worry about it tomorrow... I cannot wait until Christmas vacation, I keep telling myself only two more days, two more days and then time off... no more of that thinking crap... I plan to make this a wonderful vacation, one worth remembering...

as of now I have no plans for new years eve, but I am hoping for it to be a grand time... shley said something about a party at her house, and if that doesn't go down then maybe go into Boston to do new years with her sister... in any case I would love to spend it in the company of friends, so if anyone has any ideas, send them my way...

I wish I had something more to say, but I don't....

have a good one,

katie