my heart hurts for reasons unbenouced to me, i suppose my body and mind are just along for the ride this time.

smiles fade in the distance, and pictures are all that i hold right now.

in one of them you are sleeping, you are holding her hand, and you lip is drooping a little bit, lax in your state of unconscious. you look so peaceful that when i look at it, and think of you now i want to rip it up because i am sure you are anything but peaceful at the moment. or at least so i think... but who knows? and that's the thing... no one does.



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i have no reason to be unhappy. none at all. nothing is wrong, for real.
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just let it go....
but what?