concentrated smiles, distracted every now and then by a handsome man singing old jazz standards, sit by the warmth of a wood stove to finish a 7 month project for good.

together we learn that time, and distance, and love can tear apart people and bring them together in ways unimaginable. silent tears that fall on pillowcases at 3 am do not always go unseen, and sometimes we all need to be reminded that it will be alright.

it also seems that sometimes feelings are beyond all rational control. despite what we want to think and what we want to believe this love thing does things to us we cannot control. like make us jealous, and sad, and lonely. or even break-hearts in hopes of finding something a little more.

i wonder sometimes, if our tightly knit group will be able to survive this thing we call love. because while it keeps us together, at the same time, it has this horrible reverse magnet ability that could flip around with just the right amount of pushing and pulling that could make us all go flying away from each other. drastic change. we all know how amazing i am at dealing with that...
but then again, i suppose it is also what makes us so close at the same time. the very thing that binds us all together at the same time has this enormous power that could cause us to fly apart.

love and hate really arent too far from each other. both are fueled by intense passion. we cannot have love without hate.

feelings let us know just how alive we are.