it is 11:13 and i have done nothing since 9, partly because i haven't felt like it, and partly because i have been waiting for you, and you haven't come... but then again, why would you, you didn't know i was waiting... sometimes i wish i would just say these things out loud... in this situation i would normally say stupid boy, because i never like it to be my fault, a flaw i have carried all my life... but that would be just plain stupid because it is my fault....

so i will say this, stupid girl... stupid, stupid girl....

ohh well...

goodnight...