the other day we played dj together in the back seat of the car. well, she played dj, i simply held open the cd case, while she flipped through the cds. first we listen to enrique and his version of hero. and i was amazed at her ability to sing almost all of the song. after hearing this song she quickly became bored and asks to hear her very favorite song. her mom, who is in the front seat driving the car, asks, "on this cd?"

she simply replies, "no favorite song ever."

puzzled for a moment her mother sits there thinking. and then tells me to get out the lonestar cd.

she puts on number 7, Amazed, and i sit there in absolute shock, as the little four year old, still in her car seat sitting beside me sings me the entire song. it blew me away.

Amazed
Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away

I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
touch everyplace in my heart
Oh, it feels the first time everytime
I wanna spent the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you


and today, i sat on the couch beside this same small girl, as she told me that her parents locked her out of the house.

they had locked her out because they were dividing up all of their stuff, because they cant stand each other any more. because they just cannot live together any longer.

this of course she didnt know, and couldnt understand at the age of 4, but i knew, and it made me want to cry. it made me want to cry, and hold her tight and tell her that everything would be alright, there is no need to cry, they will still love you the same. but then i realized, this would be of no comfort to the tiny girl beside me on the couch, because she didnt even know what was going on. it would only comfort me.

her whole world is crashing down before her, and she doesnt even know it.

and her favorite song ever, in the whole wide world is amazed.

all i want to do is cry.