so 2005, already.

we started with a bang, well really more like a loud cough, but there was enough giggling and shouting and overall fun and laughter here that it felt like a bang.

its 2005, and exactly 5 months from yesterday we are graduating from high school. 5 short months. it seems hard to believe that we actually made it this far. the search for colleges for most of us is over and done with and all that comes now is the decisions. when school ends some of us are moving. others will go into the summer and start working right away, leaving little time for other activities, or seeing other people. we have 5 short months left with each other. this summer will be our last one at home possibly for a few.

sometimes i feel ready. sometimes.

and sometimes it scares me so much i just want to cry. and sometimes i do.

im just a baby really. i may say i want to go out on my own, i may say i am excited, or i might tell you the truth.

and the truth is, right now i dont want to go. high school is just fine for me. just fine.

but right now, it's time to grow up, katie, time to grow up...

the more i can admit it, the easier it is to actually do it. so dont let me lie to you.