so life changes.... it is something i have yet to really get used too... but the more and more it happens the more and more i find my rebound rate getting faster.

it's sometimes hard to think when you realize you are all alone in the room, just you. sometimes it is harder to think that that one person that you know you can always call, you shouldnt.


but i know that it isnt forever. because tomorrow is a new day, a day full of change and growth and love, hell today is a new day.... why not change now?

change, while painful also creates knowledge, a shift never leaves an empty hole.

love is a tricky thing. i dont know if i really understand it like i should. i think maybe i have it up on a pedestal created by a society that i dont know if i even believe in. so is it really real? who knows?

life is love. even if it isnt the form of love or life you really want. forever i felt like i was searching for this way to fill an empty void... when really there was no void.... i had nothing left to fill, i just had room to grow.

maybe i rationalize things so i can sleep better at night... i still have time to catch up on. sometimes i think it is all a mistake... and then i remember, if it wasnt for the mistakes then we wouldnt have the time to make up.

mistakes create understanding. i think.... or at least i hope so.