everytime i reach that road, i lean as far forward in my seat as the steering wheel allows, and look as far as i can down it, always thinking that maybe something will have changed from the last time i gazed at it... but today, just like yesterday, and the day before that, i couldnt see past that curve in the road. i wish that things didnt have to be this way sometimes, but then again, sometimes we have no choice in the way things are, sometimes actions occur that are beyond our control...

i hate that, i hate the feeling that i cant control what is going on around me... but does that make me a controling person? i dont know... sometimes we can only be the best we can be, and at the end of the day, its just not good enough... today was one of those days... i hate those days, but in the end i know they only make me stronger...

however i must also say that my mood did not change the fact that today was a beautiful fall day, for the most part (other than the rain)... most of the day the sun was shining and the air was crisp, and well, fallish... i love fall, the leaves, the cool air, the apple picking, it is a time for beginnings and a time for endings... i love the fall....

much love,

katie

ps if anyone wants to go apple picking i would love to :) hint hint....;)