so its all over now... and i didnt even know it was happening...

it was weird, when my mom took me home last night, and she was crying... i didnt understand... but now i do...

no one told me it was going to be this morning, i assumed it would be in the afternnoon, i would go up and play with him, brush him, tell him i loved him and then goodbye and that would be it...

but no, it happened this morning, and i didnt even get to say goodbye...

i know they feel horrible for not telling me, and they should, i am sorry, i am bitter right now, and for the moment i think i fully reserve that right...

i dont know what to think at the moment... and i dont want too...

thanks ash and lori for taking me out tonight tho, i would have been miserable alone...


i dont have much else to say...

have a goodnight...