'the ups and downs and crazy turns along the way will throw you off if you dont hold on tight.'

i wake up much to early in the morning and go to bed much too late, both of which are my own fault. when my alarm goes off i get too anxious in the morning, and where i used to be able to hit the snooze button i now jump out of bed thinking i am late. im not a fan. stressed? maybe just a little.

my goal: change these ridiculous sleeping habits. finish my college stuff. stop stressing.

stressing makes me feel old, and bitter. i dont know where the bitter comes from, but the only thing i can muster is bitter at myself for not just getting everything done. or maybe it is bitter because i havent been able to see things going on in my friends lives. i dont like being preoccupied, especially with myself. i hate being a bad friend.

im glad that you listen to almost every word i say, and more importantly the ones i dont (and you usually end up making me say). it means a whole lot to me. and is really important, in a big way.

here is to another day.