it's funny really, how a few simple words can affect your thinking in such radical ways. i was glad we got to have our monday night ritual last night. different place, but the same people. i miss you not being nextdoor, a whole lot more than i thought i would. a whole lot.

last night you said that colby's heart was broken too, and you just never knew what to do. it was like your whole world was just falling apart. first me, then her.... it just adds up on a person fast, especially a person like you, that cares so much for other people and hurts so much when they hurt. i understand exactly what you are feeling, and it is hard, and you do the best you can doing exactly what you do, so dont worry. we appreciate it more than you know. thanks for putting up with it.

but back to the life changing words. bigger and better. that is what we are moving onto. we are moving onto bigger and better things, and tonight i realized more than ever that you are right. you are so right. i am moving on to bigger and better things. i can just feel it.