all around the trees are changing colors and losing their leaves. the air is crisp and cool. sometimes in the morning i can see my breath as i make my walk across campus watching the chipmunks scamper across the paths and the seagulls sulk outside of the dining hall.

the cold air fills my lungs with a stinging new realization that everything around me is changing.... including myself, in ways that are both controllable and completely uncontrollable at the very same time. i feel like the sea of tasks surrounding me will never end at this very moment in time, and while i desperately labor for it to end, at the same time i dont know what i will do when i am done.

i sit up late at night getting reading done, avoiding other things, because i know that if i get to that it will hurt. and i am tired of the hurt.

it just simply manifests itself in new hopes, and new ideas, and new disappointments. mostly in myself.

i love the fall.... i need to get into this fall spirit that i so desperately miss..... Unfortunately at this moment in time it is just yet another thing i must add to my to do list....

hopefully a quiet weekend at home will be just the remedy needed.