i'm tired, and therefore have done virtually nothing these past few days. i am tired of trying to get it right the first time everytime. so i think i have decided to mess up.

i will play the game of nothing in this last month or so until i feel good and ready to start again. college ended offically a little over a week ago. i should soon be getting my diploma in the mail, but i suppose that doesn't count for a whole lot if you don't know if you even want to do anything with that little piece of paper.

today i think i may go for a run with my puppy. lay in the grass in the sun and soak it in. tonight if it is nice enough we can make a fire, drink wine, and make smores underneath a blanket of stars. sophisitcated i know. it will all make sense soon. i just don't want to think about it for a little while. because thinking has been all i've been doing the past four years. for now, i'd rather sit beside a fire beneath the stars, and not think, not care, just live for a bit, and see where it leads.